I was just standing outside, looking at the moon crested above the treeline and feeling peaceful. I thought, "I had no idea this would be my life. It's better than I could have planned!" That's saying a lot considering where I was a few years ago.
Prior to Chanz bouncing into our lives, we faced the devastation of infertility. So many tears and questions and why,why,why! All I ever wanted was to be a mom! However, I remembered my dream as a child to adopt children. I encouraged my parents to adopt before I was even a teen! I thought it was amazing. I never knew as a child that adopting is exactly what I would do.
Earlier this year, we pursued fertility treatments again. Despite responding to medication, there was still no pregnancy. I didn't feel hopeless this time, but I also didn't feel my heart was completely in it. One day I asked my husband:
"I'm going to ask you something. Say the first thing that comes to your mind, ok?"
He looked up from his computer and said, "Okay... what?"
"Fertility treatments or adoption?" He masked his face with indifference but I could tell he was trying to get a read from me so he would answer "correctly". I was just as impassive.
Finally, he said, "Adoption."
"Good! That's what I was thinking, too" I said, " just wanted to make sure we were on the same page."
I never made anymore appointments. I also never imagined we would be presented with the opportunity to adopt just a short two months later!
As I was monitoring our fundraising page, hoping upon hope that the money would come in, I heard that still, quiet voice say, "Watch me work."
And so I did.
The next 2 days, our fundraising amounts quadrupled! Fifthdupled! I have no idea what you even call that. We got a lot of donations. I was floored, my husband was floored, Chanz is clueless.
I'm absolutely amazed at where we are. This child we are going to adopt has had so many concerned people advocating for him. I think he must be something special and I sure hope we can make him feel that way. Really looking forward to this journey!